i really don't wanna leave this place. that is real talk. it's going to be outrageously hard and it's going to hurt a lot. i am going to miss everything about here, especially jp. there are going to be big pieces of me that get left here when i go.

he makes me better. he makes me someone who is happy and laughs way too loud and way too long, he gets my humour and he calls me outrageous and ridiculous and i love it. he is definitely a good thing. being here has made me feel happier than i have in months. more at home and comfortable. we kind of fell into things like we'd been doing them all along. it's weird when that happens, but kind of great, right?

i really hope he doesn't forget me. i'm not going to forget a moment of this. thank god for my memory. i hope i can come down for reading week, and that it works out. even if i doesn't, i know we'll figure something out.

gonna go have a really great day now.